Chicago, Chicago

Date: 14th September 2015, Monday

Start: 1.14am (Abu Dhabi time) 

Good morning!! It's 1.15 in the morning here in Abu Dhabi, which means its 5am in Malaysia. 

Why are we in Abu Dhabi, you ask? Well, It's because we're sending Kaklong to her college in Chicago!! Yaaayyy :D 

Our transit was in Abu Dhabi, so our flight to Chicago is in 2 hours. 

I don't know what to expect, but I'm very excited since it's my very first time to the USA! (The land everyone talks about) 

Just now, our flight was as exciting as the trip! (Will be- I'm sure) We went on business class. Can you believe it?! No, it's not because we're super rich and can afford things like that. I think it was because that all the economy seats were taken (idk), so they moved us up to business because there were free seats there. Lucky!~ 

Astaghfirullah xD It was our rizq, sorry- our rizq. As my friend said, we had 'murah rezeki'. I was very grateful!! 

I sat next to Kaklong, and was very surprised and excited at being in the seat I was in (I was shaking). Me being the jakun person I was, I explored everything. 

IT WAS SO COOL. There was a footrest, the seat could lean back (there were buttons for upright mode, relax mode and sleeping mode!!), the remote and tv was super cool, there was a loott of legroom (I'm very thankful), there was a charger and we had great food! It was my first time (and maybe last, unless I become rich as an adult heh) sitting in business, so it was an experience! And we didn't even have to pay extra, how great is that??! 

Anyway, right now we're waiting for our flight. I guess I'll look for other ways to fill up my time. 

Ah, that's right! This week (or rather, last week) I finished my JHSA trials!! I was confident for some papers, and less for some but I guess it was all good B) 

I guess that's all for now? I'll write some more later, in sya allah. 

Bye for now! 

End: 1.27am 

Emotions

Start: 12.33am (23/7/15) 

Oh yeah. 

Possibly this will be Part 1. Where I talk about how I feel? Idk. Fight me. 

Technically this would be Part 2, then, huh? After the last post X) 

Anyways, 

yesterday we were at my Uncle's house. He lives on the 15th floor. 

I walked onto the balcony and for a pretty long time, I just stood there- leaning against the rail. 

I don't know. The view was spectacular and the wind felt nice, but my heart twisted and grew uncomfortable for some reason. Especially when I looked over to Genting. 

Amazing how something so far (in a different state even) could be seen so clearly. 

Maybe it was a sense of longing. I wanted to be somewhere else. I wanted to not care about stuff right now. To travel? Probably. 

What were the people there doing? I bet the temperature felt nice. It's cold up there, so I think I'd enjoy it at least. 

I reallyyy want to be somewhere other than here, to be honest. 

But I guess I still have a lot to do. 

End: 12.40am 

Thoughts at 12am

Date: 23rd July 2015, Thursday 

Start: 12.19am

Assalaamu'alaikum, everyone :) 

Today is the.. 7th day of Syawal! So yes, Ramadhan has ended and the time to spend Raya with the family has technically passed (￣▽￣' ) 

We wore purple on the first day, and electric blue on the next (We went to Johor)

I managed to survive iktikaf X) Was a struggle but I managed! I went for a whole week+ //thumbs up// doesnt count that i went back right for a night right hehehe 

//sigh 

Truth is I really want to write about how I'm feeling right now. I should be asleep but this is kinda worrying me. I want to tell someone but I also don't..? aGH 

I feel quite nervous and worried for my class rn. I don't know if I can cope. It's my laziness, I'm sure, but I don't wany to continue being afraid of going to school because I don't know how the teachers will react to my un-accomplishments that i alwAYS say I'll do but end up not doing!! UGGHH IM SO FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF 

I know I'm wasting time most of the time but I just continue procrastinating while thinking about everything I have to do 'later'. I want to scream at myself because I have low willpower to do anything. //sIGHS 

I tell myself do better and that I'll try harder but aaGHHH I REALLY HAVE TO

I think I'm having friend problems but I'm not really sure. 

When I talk about problems in the family with my family I start to cry. That's pretty weird. Even Kakngah does it, I think. 

I want there to be someone irl who'll just listen to everything I have to say. I wish my best friends understood. They probably would, but I feel so reluctant to tell anyone at the same time. 

I'm getting mad at myself again >< 

//breathes

Okay, 'rant' over. I really wish these butterflies would go away. 

Hari Raya Party coming soon, and I'm hoping I'll get to wear my cool pants and muslimah shirt combo! 

My 'art style' or whatever is slowly improving :) Hopefully I'll be able to draw really nicely in the future, in sya allah. 

Salam, and good night, people!~ 

End: 12.30am 

JuneJuneJune

(Posted on 6th June 2015, Saturday at 4.01pm) 

Date: 5th June 2015, Friday 

Start: 10.30pm 

Dear blog, 

maybe that's how I should start each post, so it feels like a conversation.. 

heh (￣▽￣)

Anyways, a bunch of things have happened recently! 

First of all, today my family and I were supposed to go to Singapore.. we were gonna see the botanical gardens and basicalle explore S'pore and stuff.. 

Unfortunately, otw my mom received a call that her uncle was on the verge of death, and later.. passed away. 

We turned back of course. It was for the best, albeit I was rather disappointed. 

Rn we're otw to kampung, so we can attend the funeral.. (and yes, at night) 

 Mum said we were kinda disrespectful by singing along to the radio and still laughing after hearing the news.. I wanted to argue "How do you want us to react, mum? Sad? But we don't know our atok that well, even! (not saying I don't care, but.. well.. how am I supposed to feel?)" or something. //sighs// 

Secondly! It's confirmed that the Sunday group for horseriding (which includes meee) will be going to Australia to learn more and stuff at the end of the yeaaaarrr!! yAAYY 

Also, the international horse competition (that I attended last year)  will be in Penang this year and I'll probably be joining againnn (eeeeekk better up my game (-w-' )) 

Thirdly, next week (or rather, this Sunday?) my siblings and I will be joining the kursus kemahiran (Skill Building Camp?) in Kedah! :D I'm joining Ilmu Perkemahan (Camping Skills) 

Hopefully we'll learn how to start a fire with stones and etc òwó

  

Fifthly, my birthday is in 7 daayyss!! //streamers// //balloons// I'm thinking of asking Mum to just make my present a surprise.. although dunno whether itll turn out alright or not xD 

Sixthly, right after is the school's Annual Camp //lesigh// Fun thing is that I'm a mentor this year!! (Since I'm a sergeant heheheh) My best friend and I are gonna take care of this Form 4 cadet group.. so it should hopefully be fine :) 

Straight after is Ramadhan! Quite excited and also worried >~< 

Hrrmm.. aah oh yeah!

Seventhly, Kakngah has finally entered college! She applied for St. Andrews (which she got accepted) but in the end she decided to decline because it was reaaallyy expensive ==' She decided to go to UPM instead (on a scholarship huehuehue) to study medicine X) 

Her stories are really funny! xD 

Eighthly, if you can believe it.. yesterday I accidentally.. lost my phone Y~Y 

I was shopping in Jusco for pants, and in the fitting room I left my phone on the counter and forgot to take it!! Plus, it was gone from the fitting room!!! 

I only realised a few minutes later that I wasn't holding my phone, and worriedly asked the store worker if she had seen my phone. I checked the fitting room multiple times, hoping that magically it would return there >~< The number of store workers who were watching me in worry and trying to help increased. I kept walking around, looking under clothes, hoping that my phone would be underneath them somEWHERE. I asked to borrow a phone, and I called it twiCE. You know what happened?? 

It went straight to VOICEMAIL.. twiCE. 

Near tears, I imagined this was somewhat like a movie, where a thief steals a phone and then turns it off to make sure it won't be called. 

I looked around for a long time, before asking once again to call my phone, FinaLLY, a guy picked up and told me where he was to get my phone. It was a guy on crutches, and I gladly thanked him (continuing to think it was like a movie, where a person who is disabled saves the day) and was sO RELIEVED. I literally bowed my head while thanking everyone who helped me. (sO EMBARRASED AAAAGGHHH) 

 Daddy (who was downstairs the entire time) came right on time (any earlier and I would have seen him so angry and thAT IS BADBADBAD, any later and I would have had to walk around embarrassed alome (￣▽￣' )) I told him what happened, and he told me that was dangerous blablabla, but otherwised laughed it off. 

I decided not to tell my mom about this. 

 But you know what happened?? 

As I continued looking for clothes, I received a call from my mom. I wondered if she was just going to ask if I was done and what other groceries we shoud buy.. but what she did she ask instead??

 "Did you lose your phone?" 

....HOW DID SHE FIND OUT. 

I looked to my dad, and he told me that he definitely wouldn't (you know dads; he doesn't really tell my mom anything unless it's super important) and couldn't (in that short time span between me finding my phone and my mom calling me) 

I conclued it the end that it might be mother's intuition.. haih. 

(Just so you know.. NO, I am not going to ask her how she found out because I definitely don't want to bring it up again) 

She said she would take away my phone for a while, but I guess she forgot.. heh. 

Conclusion: Don't doubt mother's intuition, people. It's extremely effective. 

Whew! I think that's all that I can remember today, blog! Until then, ja ne~ 

Assalamualaikum ;) 

End: 11.07pm 

 

What's Happening

Date: 28th March 2015, Saturday 

Start: 10.56am/9pm 

Goooooodd morning! Right now I'm attending Kakngah's graduation day X) The last time I was here I was graduating primary 6 (//sobs) This place really looks like a church on the inside despite being an islamic institute :/ 

So! On what's been happening ouo 

Last week was the 'mid semester' break, and some of my friends and I went for a 5-day Sergeant camp!! I dunno whether to say it was fun or not (￣▽￣' ) It was.. memorable? In the beginning, we actually forgot to bring 2 of our tents and were left with  3, and unfortunately our camping spot was extreemeely far. I thought that the camp would have been extremely tedious by then living like that, but then one of the commanders told us to move because it really was 'too far' and in the end we moved next to the small shore overlooking the river! <3 Not those measly small rivers either, it was those big one which boats could ride on (English should really have a word to differentiate those types of rivers) 

We made do, and actually really enjoyed what we got >w< It was always sunny (which also made the days unbearably hot) but every evening my teammates and would sit next to said 'shore' and enjoy the breeze B) We also woke up every morning before subh to pray Qiyam & Subh, and had to gather in our no.4 attire by 6.30am. I kinda can't believe I managed that. 

The tests were kinda nerve-wrecking (kawad, BaSeD, ikatan and PC) but alhamdulillah we did it in the end! All of us managed to get our pangkat and we are officially sergeants B)))) 

Also (obviously), I've returned from London ahahahaha..//criesbecauseididntwriteaboutit

I really should have!! aaGGHHHH *regret*

I guess I can just remember from memory and my photos //shineshine

I especially loved going to the Natural Museum of History (was that the name?) 

It was very fun!! We saw real fossils from all types of dinosaurs and learn about precious gems and the Earth <3 

Have I written about this before? It feels like I'm repeating this -.- 

Just realised after reading my other posts, I x update about Sports Day! Well for starters, volleyball and lower badminton doubles (both which I entered)  achieved (or, I achieved) 1st place!! YeaaaaaaahhHHHHHH B))) 

I also entered 800m lowers but let's not talk about that.. (￣▽￣)

In the end (I've said that like, 3 times?), Uhud got 3rd for Puteri, and..last for Main u_u We'll try again next year!! 

..Aaaah that's all?? Everything that's important anyway ehehehehe X) 

End:11.18am/9.04pm 

Cross Country 2015

(supposed to be published earlier but there were publishing problems :/) 

Date: 17th January 2015, Saturday 

Start: 2.23pm 

alhamdulillah we finished croSS COUNTRY yaaAAYYYY :DDD 

 I'm an upper secondary now, so I had to run 7km!! It was really tiring, and it's been 2 hours since I got back and my legs ache and I'm still dizzy @-@ 

It was at FRIM, and the place and the weather was really nice!! <3 For some reason, the weather has been clear and very blue (think Australia) and veryy hot (although this is my favourite type of weather -the 'clear blue skies' part and not the 'hot' part tho D:) 

 Thankfully I don't have sunburn (￣▽￣)

At first I was one of the.. What? Top 10? I continued to jog even if I was tired, and even jogged up the drEADED HILLS I HATE RUNNING UP HILLS 

(╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

 In the middle, A (my friend whom I caught up with and was running with) had to puke because she was pushing herself too hard? So N (whom I caught up with in the start of the race) and I slowed down and told her we'd stick together X) She complained a LOT (A can be a little negative sometimes..) but we helped her anyway XD 

  In the end, near the finish line all three of us sprinted, and A got 11th place, I got 12th and N got 13th :DD I can say I'm pretty proud of myself hahaha X) We did it in about half an hour, i think.. //shrugs 

Anyway, it was quite fun! 'Looking forward (lol)' to next years X) 

Ciao and Assalaamu'alaikum! :) 

End: 2.37pm 

3rd Week of February

Date: 18th February 2015, Thursday 

Start: 10.23pm 

Heyyooo! #howtobeginapost101 needed but right now I'm really sleepy but I feel compelled to write so yeah X) 

 It's Chinese New Year today, so happy celebrating :) its also the 1st day of the CNY holiday :DD 

A month ago, I (obviously) came back from a week of London!! I would have written each day of it while I was there but im lazy so I didn't OTL 

 It was really fun though!! I went on the underground subways for the first time like in TV shows, went to Oxford Circus, stood on the Greenwich line and technically went to the Royal Observatory, visited the National Museum (which was realllyy cool! There were lots of dinosaur bones and it was science-y and geography-y? My brother and I walked alone around the place, and we learned about space and minerals and gems, and the types of birds and what dinosaurs used to live in the UK.. etcetc :DD) 

 The cold was very refreshing as well <3 Well, i wouldnt have thought of it as 'refreshing' when I was there (because tbh i was frEEZING) but then when else am I gonna experience the cold?? 

 I also went to the Hyde Park, which was exTREMELY COLD and had an abundance of birds! 

 My grandparents also followed us, so I hope they had a good time :) 

Hrmm.. what else? 

2 weeks from now is the Girls' Sports Day! Yesterday, H and I got into the finals which were playing next week (were playing doubles for lowers) //yosh!! 

The other doubles for lowers team for my house also got into the finals! So im guessing i have to beat my own team to get no. 1? #thefightison 

 I'm also playing volleyball, which I hope in sya allah my house will get no.1 for! 

I'm also in track & field, but I'm x sure what I'm running for.. My name is written for 800m, but I hope that I don't really have to do that TuT 

In school, my friends have been saying that I have this secret admirer (￣▽￣)

With their fangirling and small hints and me crossing out the options, I'm pretty  sure I know who the 'guy' is.. dunno how to feel about it yet though 囧rz

I sometimes look at him and wonder what I should be thinking of him -3- he's a nice guy, and sometimes he does look and act cute, but I don't think I 'like' him (yet- according to my friends who think theyre matchmakers or something)  

 Tom is at the vet.. He has been for a while now :( ive had like, 2 or 3 dreams of him coming home already :/ In sha allah he'll be okay ☆〜

I'll update when I have more news  to tell hopefully (~-u-)~ 

Until then, assalaamu'alaikum! 

Ciao ciao~ 

3rd day of school

(supposed to be published earlier but there were some publishing problems :/)

Date: 14th January 2015, Wednesday 

Start: 6.19pm 

Soooo school started two days ago! It was supposed to start last week but was delayed because of the floods in the other states :( 

The first day was.. exciting? Nah not really XD I woke up quite early and got ready for school after not doing so in a month! Assembly was as usual.. There were 2 speeches and either I didn't listen much or they were just too far away to hear anyway :P We didnt have any classss //streamers During break, N remarked that it felt like normal again and it felt like any other day of school (which it did) XD 

The second day of made me wish I didn't come DD: The whole day was filled with talks and orientations and briefings about CCA, the discipline rules, etcetc (on the bright side being no class, but that was also a con because class is sometimes fuunn //sad) 

Today was also quite uneventful. We read Qur'an and had a talk in the morning, and then had break and then we stayed in class all afternoon until lunch (my classmates (the same classmates from last year.. We might as well be form 2 again X))))) and I chatted about random topics for a whole.. 3 hours? Wao XO) Then Zuhr and tHEN we had a sports and crOSS COUNTRY briefiinngg X) 

  Speaking of cross country, doesn't that mean it'll be this blog's one year anniversary?? XD //balloons //streamers 

Anyways, since I'm going to London tomorrow and now that I'm a Form 3 (which means I have to compete against Form 4 & 5!!) and we've got to run 7KM, Ive decided to just jog and aim for above 11 ( i dont wanna join MRSM 囧rz) but less than 30 ☆〜（ゝ。∂）but nonetheless imma do my best!! #fighto!! 

Tomorrow is the training (which just means running around the school) :D 

It's gonna be at FRIM, which is cool because its usually at the lake garden :DD X)

Guess thats it! Will update soon in sya allah >uo 

Assalamu'alaikum :) 

Ciao~ 

End: 6.33pm 

Night at Prince Hotel and Day at Pavillion

Date: 3rd January 2015, Saturday 

Start: 12.40pm 

Good afternooonnn and okay soo 2 days ago (1st Jan) my family and I stayed at Prince Hotel to.. celebrate the new year?? Idk actually my mom just wanted to use her free room discount i think XD 

 My mom's room and our room (the girls') were reaally far apart (my mom's room was 1701 and we were in 1721 TuT). It was alright ou< At least I got to stay at a hotel :D we had Chinese food at night (i got to enhance mah chopsticks skillz //hiiyyaaaaa) 

 The next morning we had a breakfast buffet and I got reaallyy fulll //aaahhh The glasses were really small and I had to refill my ice water like, 6 times  (づ￣ ³￣)づ

the food was okay and the pancakes had a caramel sauce (that i was supposed to refrain from eating XD) 

 After that we thought we would wait for Kaklong to finish her applications or whatever so the 3 of us (Kaklong, Kaklang and I) could go to Pavillion but we knew that would take too long (￣▽￣' ) So in the end Mum let us (Kaklang and I) go by ourselves! (And gave us 50 each) 

Prince Hotel is right in front of Pavillion so it was about a 5 minute walk. 

Aaaahhh Kaklang thought about crossing the road (which i didnt agree to becAUSE OF THE SCARY TRAFFIC) so we agreed to walk to the escalator. 

We went around searching for clothes and fortunately it was quite emptyy (because it was still early) (=´∀｀)人(´∀｀=) we went in and out of stores and i found some clothes i liked and i also bought a head pillow for our trip to London! Oh, have i mentioned that? If i haven't, on the 18th my grandparents, my family and I are going to London! XD //confetti yeahyeah its during the 2nd week of school but no refunds or whatever へ(゜∇、°)へ

 Continuiinngg (why is the colour suddenly red?) we went to Times and I bought a file, erasers and correction tappee

Then i bought a japanese strawberry-cream crepe X))) 

 After that we looked around somemore and we went to Tokyo Street and i found out Daiso is reaally coooll!! They have lots of cool japanese stuff 

Actually on second thought all of Tokyo Street is cool XD 

 After a while Mum came and met us at Tokyo Street and wanted to eat luncch. We walked around looking for a good sushi shop (until Mom decided she didnt want sushi) and Mom got distracted and bought mooCCHHIIII ((i love Mochi! <3)) 

 Then we just went to Food Republic and I got meself some Tomyam Seafood Noodles (yumm) :D 

 Then Kaklang went to go buy the books she didnt have enough money to buy before Mum came and we went hoommee and ate da mocchii //streamers 

 End of the trip! I got really sleepy when I got back zZZzzz 

Well, that's all follkss 

Ciao~ and 

Assalaamu'alaikum! :) 

End: 1.01pm